Center of the One Heart

“It only takes a drop to raise the ocean.”

Freedom is forgiving yourself.
You have never made a mistake. Ever.

Thank you Geoffrey Bullington.
I discarded that pain body and left it by the beach.
I didn’t even know I’d been carrying it.
It was fucking heavy too.

Sometimes things are so detailed and complex I can’t write about them. Like if I saw a complicated tree limb configuration and wanted to relay it to you, I’d have a bit of trouble with describing the details. Most of the data would be lost through the reduction and manifestation of thought into words; unless I had happened to take a picture. Then you could reference and assimilate my enthusiasm and reaction to it with the visual complexity and inner order of the photograph and then place that in the electromental field of your own life’s experience and layer your own reaction on top of the base perception and my interpretation. All of these complicated interchanges may result in the reaction, “big deal, it’s a frikkin’ tree,” but because you internalized my vibrational field we still evolved each other minutely.

My awakening process feels the same way. I’m having so many problems with finding the damn words. Especially as I don’t really know substantively what I believe and don’t even want a solid belief system anymore; it’s hard to get on a soap box and try to tell people to live a different way by thinking a different way. “Well what do you propose?” “Oh you know, being nice and shit cause everything is ONE divided infinitely to MANY. Why do you think gravity works? Because everything wants to come home; be one again.”

This awakening process is deceptive because we learn through the information, but all of this information gathering isn’t really about information at all. As Walter Russell says, you can’t know information or facts. You can be told them, but you can’t know them. You can only truly know through experience. I can give you all the new age bullshit in the world and we can watch the same videos and read the same articles, but if you don’t feel the truth of it in your gut then you aren’t having the same experience.

Like many fractal patterns, it is all matter of scale. If I have already done the research and am convinced that there is life on other planets or another dimension (or rather, in frequency ranges or fractal SCALE not accessible by our limited senses) then the next stepping stone, let’s say, that this other intelligence may be here on this planet or influencing us in some way right now, really isn’t that big of a jump. It’s a tiny gap, very easy for me to get to the next stepping stone. But for someone who hasn’t accepted the first premise internally and only has accepted it as a piece of information, the second leap is absolutely huge. Their scale is such that the gap is insurmountable and no fact or persuasion will get them across because it will have no internally digested truth to stick to. Only direct experience could reconfigure that person’s scale, and that unfortunately would be experienced as trauma because mentally it would be such a vast structural change in a single moment. Fear lives in the gaps where everything seems to be disjointed and removed from everything else.

I want to join the spiritual conversation that is going on in the world as I feel like I have something to add. I don’t want to go too grandiose either; that’s been done plenty. I want to bring it back to practicality and moment by moment every-day living.

(My mother got into Eckhart Tolle for a while on my suggestion, but it didn’t stick and actually made her more anxious rather than less. In all the BEING advice there wasn’t enough concrete DOING there for her to latch onto. The inner truth hadn’t attached itself yet and she wasn’t given the tools to even mimic the behavior of one who had already accepted the truth as he had. Like mimicing the actions of a Kung Fu master you attempt to BE a master through form, but the being is somewhere else; not in mimickry of the actions itself, in the muscle memory, or in the memory of learned behaviors.)

I want to be the translator for the world of thought. I want to elucidate tiny things like how to drive consciously or how to reinterpret failure moment by moment. How to reflow a conversation when necessary or distract a negative persona from themselves. How to think about the thought universe as primary and material as secondary. How to use game dynamics to represent the male and female energy exchanges (Walter Russell describes a universal male and female polarity rather than positive and negative) that occur behind ALL exchanges: intellectual, economic, in love, art, conversations, belief, weather, and in physics. How to love somebody truly and still be true to yourself. It’s all the same principle being taught to you over and over again! (Even though you already know the truth, experience dissonance as pain, and have chosen to be separate from creation in order to accelerate your growth and return journey.) I want to show how all this applies to both the material realist and the spiritualist. Living as if all was actually one within your own internalized reality, as if everything had purpose, is a more productive strategy than living without. We need to unlearn division.

I want make new-agey type videos for you, like this: Kymatica 8/9 and Kymatica 9/9 as I’m not sure I can say everything through pictures or words alone. Unfortunately, there is a palpable lack of quality that exists in all my endeavors because I approach the creative realm like a wild boxer; I’ll go a sloppy round of huffing and puffing and throwing punches and then I go back to my stool and spit into a bucket and chill for a bit. I need to be able to carry a project through stages and devote time and the necessary refinement to it, to get it to catch the viewer as a thought meme that will be spread like a virus. I see myself as a virus anyway. Even if I wasn’t blogging or saying so much as boo to a goose. Just thinking this way, going to a mall, walking the streets, driving your roads – I am a consciological weapon seeding myself in everyone I am near (which is everyone) and everything I touch (which is everything.) I topple governments and religions. I help you make poor fashion choices and healthier mental ones. I am pervasive and the more I change the world inside me the more the world outside changes. Because there is no outside world.

If that sounds like arrogance, that’s a reflection from your universe, not mine.

{ edit created sometime later when i was in a different mood, and post-hypocritically-dropping some f*bombs at my father because we were supposed to caravan somewhere and he just took off like he always does and left me fiddling with my GPS. Sadly, I felt that the f*bomb was most appropriate device at the time that could communicate my message effectively. Will it stop him from doing it again? Probably not. Edit note begins… now:

If you’re generally happy, then you’re probably doing it (life) right anyway, so don’t listen to me at all. Everything is as it should be and we’re all learning together at the same time. If we ain’t all learned then we ain’t learned shit. The state of the world outside is the state of the world inside. Man, you can practically watch the human race learning as one like a child – oh, fast food delicious and fast, but it made us fat… boo hoo… we should change, revenge and military justice delicious, but war cost us too much, national friends is better than enemies, a guy we want to drink a beer with isn’t a prerequisite for leadership, saying you’re christian doesn’t mean doing you’re christian, all our institutions let us down, the government lies to us, we got all me me me and more more more but now we’re sad sad sad, money is bullshit, we can live on less, we need to be more spiritual, we aren’t alone if we’re together, we need to be healthier, family and relationships is what matters, the corporations follow suit, we need to think healthier and treat the earth right, the corporations start making eco-socks (seriously, I saw this) and healthy living products and putting inspiring words in their advertising that they probably don’t believe, but the people do, and then wham! we ARE living in a better world, we ARE more responsible adults, the people running the corporations now DO believe the slogans and live appropriately. That’s why, unlike my crazy right-wing brethren, I don’t need to concern myself with Obama’s true motivations; the words of hope ARE hope, instill hope, the words of change ARE change, instill and allow change. It’s the thoughtspace, stupid. }

I was really comfortable as an atheist/agnostic. Now that I do believe in a consciousness/universal self, dare I say God, I’m on far less steady ground. To be honest I can’t feel it viscerally. That was always my problem as an atheist; “I’d sure like to believe what you folks are on about, but all I feel is the equilibrium, where is the god-love?” Now I know the love IS in equilibrium, is everywhere equally, but I still don’t know how to divide myself appropriately to actually feel it. Orgasms are cool, but a brief and poor substitute for a feeling of universal love and oneness. Ah well. I’ll keep meditating then. This distance I experience is an important part of being a translator; if you step too far in you can’t describe it to the folks back home any more. It will certainly make the moment of my knowing so much the sweeter if/when I get there.

http://oneheartcenter.org/about/homecoming-2009-flyer
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swannanoa_(mansion)

So, Mia and I went to the Center of the One Heart Homecoming consciousness conference last weekend.

I only knew about it through Nassim Haramein’s newsletter. I saw the word Virginia and couldn’t believe it! No one ever comes to talk here, they always go to LA or NY. The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to go. I wish I would have advertised that I was going and that it was even taking place because it might have inspired some of you too, but honestly I didn’t know if it was going to be really gay or not. It was kinda gay, but then again completely amazing and luckily I was a kinda-gay-me because I loved it all. Next year I will definitely go again. What an incredible experience. Not just the speakers, but just being around that kind of non-judgmental and thoughtful people really changes you. They had fun without beer and weed! That was odd to me, but I could get used to it.

Of the speakers, Ross Bishop (*), Geoffrey Bullington, and Nassim Haramein (*) all deserve high praise. (I didn’t get to hear the talk about dousing, but my buddy Scott once sent me dousing rods and they are still waiting for me to pick them up again.)

Even for one who reads a lot of this kind of stuff, I heard ideas and concepts I’d never heard before which impressed me. It was like we were on the cutting edge of philosophy. A speaker who was only there in spirit is Walter Russell. I knew absolutely nothing about the man until this weekend. He is amazing and there is a biography of him, The Man Who Tapped the Secrets of the Universe (youtube), read by The DoveLady (plenty of stuff there to keep you busy for days.) I’ve been listening to her reading of The Secret of Light by Walter Russell as well, whilst at work. Put on my headphones and away I go! I can’t say I recommend Walter Russell for the average explorer though because he speaks with the voice of a different age. He needs a translator for the new one. He is also such an accomplished man that people will tend to see him as above themselves, not that this is something achievable by anyone.  Because of my experience and respect I am linking to it, but if I had just stumbled upon the work without knowing anything about the man I’m not sure I would have passed it on for fear it would lose the average reader/viewer. I’m not sure his ideas will reignite today in their present form, but I hope to absorb what I can and find another vehicle to deliver them in.

He says nature is a jealous god and she will only tell you her secrets if you go to her alone and ask humbly. I do plan to do just that. Will tell you what she says.

This is Michael Hudak who runs philosophy.org:

He sold me two Russell books. He’s an interesting guy with loads to say, but he was most fascinated with why Mia and I looked so young at age 35. Whoo hoo! (My secret is avoiding stress and responsibility like the plague. Well, except personal responsibility for the state of the world, but that’s different.)

My dad says when I was a child he took us to Swannanoa and I was fascinated with it all, but I have no memory of this. Still, it seems significant that I would be so intellectually aroused by the man and the University of Philosophy and Science and then have it all come full circle now.

In the read more I’ll post my godlikeproductions thread about Walter Russell if you want to hear a bit about the trip and some of the latest developments by Nassim Haramein. I thought it was interesting anyway.

If the one heart org. sells the DVD of the event I will find out and pimp it here for sure.
You’ve got to see that. What a great collection of important ideas.

Are you a GLP reader?
I made a thread suggesting some banner ideas, but it totally fell off the earth.
If anything, you’ve got to at least check that NASA image.

reposted from GLP:
http://www.godlikeproductions.com/forum1/message816961/pg1

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[Michael Hudak's] website where you can get many walter russell books:
[link to www.philosophy.org]
(He says he gets offered tons of money for that URL)

Check out the gallery of scientific drawings:
[link to www.philosophy.org]

This information is huge and his book is blowing my socks off already. I have a gut intuition about things and many of these ideas are so strong and so right that the truth if it shines like a beacon. Russell was tapped into something universal. I’ve been looking for answers and the answers are already here.

As we are all one consciousness, I urge you to help me research this man and spread what truths you can. YOU are the culmination of generation after generation of universal evolution and you are the product of all of those minds working in concert to create your iteration; which is a very important one. You are a planetary body housing billions and billions of living cells, bacteria, fungi, and viruses, each one communicating with you and dependent on you just as you are dependent upon your host, the earth; and she is dependent upon the sun. The breath is an information exchange with the vacuum source and we are all in the process of gathering information and experience and sharing it to further the existing knowledgebase and universal understanding of separation from the source.

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New Info from Nassim:

The first shocking news was that Nassim, never having even mentioned Walter Russell to my knowledge, is actually a great fan of his work and his own work coincides greatly with Russell’s. I’m sure Nassim could be off at more choice locations to give lectures, but I think he felt compelled to travel to Virginia to Russell’s former mountaintop home to pay homage to this man and speak the truth to us. Luckily, I got sucked into that vortex too.

I’m not sure if this is ‘off the record’ or not, but Nassim did tell a room full of people, so… here’s the gossip. He told us something I’ve NEVER heard Nassim talk about, which is that for 15 years he didn’t just want to solve the mysteries of physics, his intent from the beginning was to build a device. Philosphy without application meant nothing to him. He hasn’t spoken of technology or application before because he said it wasn’t time yet. (Russell also had ‘time-sensitive’ restrictions on his work; only allowed to release certain things to the public after a certain amount of time had passed.)

Nassim has had a ball of crystal constructed (grown) to absolute precision right down to the crystalline structure with plasmatic gasses trapped inside in a way that he believes is in parallel with the geometry of the universe. His intent was to place it in a specifically made rig and spin it to 5000+ RPMs, but he lost funding before he got to do a lot of experimenting.

Nevertheless, the crystal ball was finished and shipped to him and not knowing what to do with it now, without funding for lab analysis, he just placed it in the rig and left it alone.

He awoke and said that he heard noises coming from the lab and he looked down the hall and the entire hallway seemed to be undulating like a wave. He says you can not record the noises that the thing makes with a microphone and yet people in proximity can hear them. He says the crystal works as an amplifier of whatever is in the field. If you have negative issues and are not spiritually centered you will have great distress in the presence of the machine. You will then either learn to rapidly control yourself or you must retreat and come back when you are more centered.

When experimenting with water they found that water near the machine after only 20 minutes can sustain the life of cut flowers far longer (a month) than control tests with ordinary tap water. It alters the structure of the water. (More accurately: water seems to always take on the structure of its surroundings and this is no exception. In this case, the force is CONSTRUCTIVE/CONTRACTIVE whereas wilhelm reich’s orgone energy is DESTRUCTIVE/EXPANSIVE.)

He has also felt the presence of ‘beings’ around the ball and even his engineers have seen things enter the lab and then exit. Balls of light seem to be a frequent diversion from work.

Why is the sky black when the universe is filled with light?
You live in a black hole.

Why is the gravitic force of an atom so strong locally?
It is a singularity.

Nassim then says that someone gave him some old papers never before seen from Walter Russell and they were drawings of a very similar type of crystal ball in a circular configuration/rig. There were also testing results from the General Electric lab, the premiere lab at the time. The results basically say that after running Russell’s machine would transmute some of the gasses trapped in the crystal. i.e. it would change weight, and the spectrometry levels of different gasses inside would produce different results than it did before running. (i.e. different levels of hydrogen, etc.)

Transmutation. You get it? There’s no such thing as Iron, Cobalt, Gold, Silver – there is only ONE type of “matter” creating the whole universe. We are dealing with a frequency, not a specific bound atomic configuration.

Nassim also claims that through this technology they will generate power and create anti-gravitic effects (though he has not yet done so.) He says this technology will change the world, but we need to be consciously ready otherwise it could have very destructive results and would be suppressed in some way. He says we WE NEED TO ESCAPE THE SURFACE OF THE PLANET. AND SOON! The atmosphere of the earth is the thickness of the paint on a pool ball and he says one major event from the sun and it will just flash! burn it right off and earth will be a new mars. We need to change scales/resolution from a planetary being to a galactic one and the speeding up we are experiencing is that transition manifesting itself.

During the Q&A period a woman asked Nassim if he had had contact with extraterrestrials. Now this whole conference no one had talked about ET and Nassim was very sheepish at first because I think he doesn’t want to damage his reputation by talking about ET/devices, but this weekend was special and he did acknowledge that he has been in contact, that MANY people have been and are working on similar devices, that all ET races are working for the betterment of mankind and the universe has a failsafe – you are not ALLOWED to reach that level of technology unless you are spiritually centered. The two are inseparable. Any talk of ET as evil is a misinterpretation brought on by the distortion of human fear and perspective.

It’s all just a matter of scale in the fractal universe. We are a universe unto the biological components that make up us. We communicate with them and they communicate to us though if one asked a skin cell, “is there a god (human)?” it most likely would not know.

Open your hearts.
Nassim says disclosure is coming very soon and that we need to prepare ourselves for a great change.

We are the universal mind helping the human race learn its own origin and power which it was made to forget.

No matter how spiritually aware/enlightened someone seems to be THEY ARE STILL EARTHBOUND LIKE YOU – they were put on this planet because they still had growth/learning to do just like you.

So your greatest teacher is YOU, not anyone else.

Meditate. Search for answers. Be kind to each other.
ESPECIALLY YOURSELF!

You have NEVER MADE A MISTAKE. Mistakes are learning experiences. Nothing has EVER died and neither will you. We have never seen a cell disappear; we have only seen state changes.

“If I had a friend who said the things my brain says to me, I’d get a new friend”

Please forgive yourself.

We can help each other.
Thanks for listening.